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My Journey to being smoke free

09 May

Once I decided to have the bariatric surgery, I found out that the Dr. would not do the surgery unless I was 2-weeks to 30 days smoke free.  What was I supposed to do?  I wanted the surgery badly but I have been a smoker for almost 25 years. I have tried to quit in the past, including both of my pregnancies  and always went right back to it.  I went back and forth in my thinking and wondered how a DR. could legally tell me to quit something that was LEGAL?  I was told they would be doing a urine test before surgery to check.  Then I wondered, do they check for alcohol or illegal drugs because those impede healing as much as smoking does. I still have to find this one out   at my appointment on Wednesday.  I am an adult and if I want to smoke and it’s legal, I should be able to.  I have had 13 surgeries in the past and 1. was never told I had to quit smoking and 2. have never had a problem healing.   I thought a Dr. would know that if you force someone to do something they are not ready for, you have already set them up to fail.   But if I want the surgery, I have to.  I personally know 5 people, all smokers, who have had the surgery.  Guess what?  ALL 5 went back to smoking right after their surgeries. So I guess the success rate of that is not very good.  Well. even though I feel this way, I am quitting and am hoping I can stay quit for good.  This will be a log of my daily journey and hopefully it will help someone else.

 

Day 1     Last Night at 10 pm was my last cigarette.  It is now 10 am, 12 hours in.  The cravings are there but they are not excruciating right now.   Every time I eat, I want a smoke,  when I get in the car I want one  but it is mild right now.  After much research, everything I have read says drink lots of water, cranberry juice and eat fresh fruits and veggies ti help with the detox.  I have already drank 2 16 oz bottles of water and had a banana.  This is all suppose to aid in getting the nicotine out by flushing the kidneys, which is where the nicotine is broken down by the body. S I will try to help it along.  I have also invested in 2 bags of DumDum suckers  which also seem to help and since they only have like 10 calories each, it’s better than turning to stuffing my face.

Now it is 6 pm and the cravings still have not been terribly bad.  I do find myself thinking about a smoke more than really craving one.  I know I am almost 24 hours smoke free and according to research, my body is already starting to heal itself.  I do feel better and have not coughed at all today ( although I really never had a smoker cough)  We will see what tomorrow brings,

DAY 2   The second day of being smoke free. I woke up thinking about smoking but not a very bad yearning for one.  I got up and got a bottle of water and a banana   and that helped.  I feel a bit sluggish today and just a little bit on edge but not bad.  No one in my family is avoiding me yet lol.  The cravings are few and far between and are worse after meals and things like that but I grab a sucker and I’m good.  My grandson thinks it’s hilarious that nana is walking around with a sucker stick hanging out of my mouth  but it’s working.

Now it’s 8 pm on day 2  and it’s been almost 48 hours smoke free.  We took our grandson out to dinner and it was way smoother than I thought it would be.  I figured I would be crabby  but it was a great time.  Let’s see what day 3 brings,

DAY 3   Okay  this is sooooo not a good day.  I think the cravings are worse today than they were the previous days combined.  All I think about this morning is a smoke, a smoke, a smoke.  I feel extremely fatigued and have absolutely no energy.  It is 10;30 am and I am on my 2 bottle of water and about my 5th sucker. I haven’t had any issues with my anxiety disorder in months but today it has reared its ugly head. Oh it’s gonna be a long day.   I have had so much pain the last few weeks from the pinched nerve in my back and today it even seems that the pain from this is worse too. I think it’s gonna be a lounge in bed and order dinner out type of day.

‘DAY 4     GRRRRR I thought this was supposed to get easier. It is worse everyday!  I go to bed thinking about smoking and wake up thinking about it.  I just feel terrible. I have no energy, I am sick to my stomach and even woke up in the middle of the night because I had vomit in my throat.  I am eating everything that is not tied down and it’s ridiculous. I wish I could have seen and felt what I am going through right now before I started smoking and I know I would never have started. We went over to my moms and the hubby put together the backyard swing we bought her for Mother’s Day and my sister was outside smoking and the smell just about drove me over the edge. I had to move away from her fast.  GRRRRR

Day 5   Today is Mother’s Day.  Still do not feel any better nor is it getting any easier. All I think about is smoking and it’s pathetic. I tried sitting out in the fresh air while my hubby built my garden for me but that didn’t help. I tried yet another sucker and that didn’t help.  My hubby had decided to quit with me so  it would be easier on me but today he caved and bought a pack. He isn’t smoking them in the house but even outside they are a temptation so I came inside. I was shocked that he caved because he is usually the one who can put down a pack and quit for whatever amount of time he wants. But between all of the stress we have going on, my health problems, money problems, etc,, it just got to him and I can understand why.  After all of my research I kept reading that quitting smoking is equivalent to detoxing from heroine. Ok ay then, why is their no rehab center for smokers?  Alcoholics and drug addicts get help and gets meds to help with withdrawal symptoms, smokers don’t. The one med they keep pushing, Chantix, is a real beaut. It causes the worst anxiety ever, I was absolutely evil when I took it and could even feel myself being evil. I had horrific dreams and felt hostile every minute of the day. How is a medicine that can may you suicidal or homicidal ( yes it says this in the literature for the drug) be okay to give someone, unsupervised.  If My hubby had not been here to pull the plug  on that med, I wouldn’t have stopped it myself and who knows what would have happened. The commercial states a 44% success rate of quitting smoking, sorry that is still a low number to put up with all of the side effects and they sure don’t tell you, what percentage of users of this med killed themselves or someone else or done harm to someone. People will say ( and I have heard it all through the years) you chose to smoke so it’s your problem. Yes I did choose this, but alcoholics also CHOOSE to drink and drug addicts CHOOSE to take drugs but we feel bad for them and their “situations” and we get them help. But oh Lord, you are  a smoker?  Here’s how we will help: ban all public smoking! There you go, if you can smoke in public then you will quit right?  WRONG!!! Here is how we help smokers, add more tax on to cigarettes and raise the price!  Yay that really works. I can remember when I said to myself, ” If cigarettes hit $2.00 a pack I am quitting. LOL  now they are up to $7 a pack and we are still buying them.  If alcohol costs rose as steadily as cigarette prices, booze would cost triple what it does now.  I guess I am on a rant because I am tired if wanting a smoke!!!!!

 

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Posted by on May 9, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

2 responses to “My Journey to being smoke free

  1. Michelle

    May 9, 2014 at 6:56 am

    I think part of telling you to quit smoking is to test your will power. Even with bariatric surgery you have to be VERY disciplined with your intake. The surgery is only a tool to help you lose weight, not a magic want (trust me, I had surgery last May). Also you will heal faster and have less likelyhood of blood (clot or other) problems if you quit smoking (Im a former smoker as well). Anything to help hurry the healing from this surgery is wonderful! Keep up the quit. Quitnet.com helped me lots

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    • couponfreestuff

      May 9, 2014 at 7:45 am

      I think you are right about the will power!! I just know it has reeked havoc with all of the things you have to do to just get approved. my insurance demanded i weigh in once a month for 6 month and lose at least 1 pound a month. Trying to quit smoking and dieting do not go together lol. I hope you have had great results from the surgery!!! Thank you so much !!

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